How far is too far?

I started this blog because I need a place to vent my frustration. I'm in love with a close friend, but I can't figure him out. Every ACTION is SUPER-positive. He pulls chairs and closes doors, but that's the gentleman his momma taught him to be. He routinely makes an extra effort for me and all of his friends and family think we're the perfect match. Here's the rub: All of his WORDS are negative. He constantly tells me that he wants to be my FRIEND.

I know what you're saying, 'girl, he's not into you!' And normally, I would agree. The situation is a little more complicated than that. I won't get into details, but I will tell you what I love about him.

1.) I can FEEL our connection, physically, every time I touch him. We could be holding hands or just handing over an item, but whenever our skin touches, it's like magic! 

2.) He makes me be a better person. Whenever I'm near him, I want to be my best self all the time. I feel like I can do anything, accomplish any task.


3.) He's my personal cheerleader. I can just see him standing there, megaphone in hand, telling me that I can do it, no matter what it is. He's never negative or abrasive with me. 


4.) Nothing is ever off limits. We can openly and honestly share anything with each other without the fear of being judged. 

5.) He's the same type of person as me. We have very similar goals, expectations, values, morals, and character. Our differences complement each other and we deal with confrontation in a similar matter. To me all of this = a great relationship in the making.


Right now, he's trying to decide if he should reconcile with his ex. Right now, I'm trying to decide if I should wait for him to make that decision.